what is happening?

MOOD: Sian-ed

Went Sentosa with Dear peanut and hong..
yeah it's been long since i stepped onto the beach..
Beach is ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ lo...
i dunno why.. since young i'm in love with the sea..
it's just so relaxing man..
all the waves will bring your sorrows, unhappiness and anger away..
listening to the waves...

Now i felt like going to re lang dao la..
but it's kind of expensive to me..
there's too much places to go and too little money to spend on everything..
1st is my birthday and my savings in the bank..
den is ShangHai trip.. (if i'm able to go)
den is cruise with Dear..
den maybe Genting with Dear peanut irene and hong..
so many places i wanna go lo..
but where do i get the money??
haix.. work work work...
ok i really wan go NTUC see they wan to hire ppl not..
hahas the pay should be not bad.. =)

Money is the things i'm stressing about..
so much expenses and so little earnings..
haix.. and so many birthdays are coming...
oh my.. this year is super broke..
no no no i cant think this way..
should be i will work harder to get everything done!!
JIA YOU!! =D

i think some days i'm gonna be soft-hearted again..
what's happening..
i'm starting to miss already..
i even heard of the ridiculous things i did lo..
omg.. why am i still thinking..
will my decision be right?
or will my decision be wrong?
it's such a dilemma..
one wrong step will cause my happiness..
but if i dun go the 1st step how will i noe whether or not i will be happy?
should i step forward or backward?


♥ yantiing ♥
i may be dumb but i'm not stupid~